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well whats new with me???umm nothing.im either working or hanging out with ed when i can.i know me working has brought us closer.its funnie kinda.i mean b4 me and ed were close but not with me working we are closer then ever.i think we have not been this close since we started going out.he tells me that he misses me more.i know that i miss him more too.it is hard for us to see each other with his work and college schedule and with my work schedule when we both have time to see each other then is when we can hang out.i love him soo much.it is like i am falling in love with him all over again.smiles.
well work has been good.phil is working with me now.which is cool.this past friday i got paid made some money there..hehe.brought my self a new pair of jeans..yeah went down a size in pants.i am now a size 3.yeah.which is cool i guess.hehe.
right now i am not doing nothing.just sitting here in front of the computer being bored.ed right now is at a viewing till 9.one guy that ed worked with he had cancer and this past friday he died from the cancer he was only 34 years.so ed is at the viewing right now paying his respects.i think after that we are hanging out and i think we are going bowling.i am not soo sure.if we are or not but it would be fun though.but tomorrow is going to be a looonng day for me.i work from 12pm till 9pm.9 hours. i am going to be soo tired when i get off.then thursday i work 12pm-4pm and friday i work 12pm-9pm again and then saturday i work 9am-4:15 pm.then sunday i have off which is good.
well i duno know what else to write in here..
*i love edward forever not matter what happens*
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| cause perfect isnt so perfect.. |
[05 Oct 2005|11:58am] |
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well ive been busy.the only thing i am doing right now is working and when i am not working i am hanging out with edward.while i am working at five guys, i am looking for another job. i mean i like working at five guys it just that place is not my thing. i cant really take it anymore.i cant take how things are there. i dont really like it.it just so hectic there.but there is this place that i applied to and it seems like i might be working there.which i really hope becuase it is really what i am looking for.but i am working at five guys right now bc i mean hey its a job and i get money for it. so as soon as i can found a better job i am qutting five gusy and going to the better job.this friday i get paid.yah i will have money.lol.
today i gotta work.i have to work from 4pm-9pm then i get to see ed bc he is picking me up from work.then tomorrow i work too..4pm-9pm and ed is picking me up.smiles.then friday i work too.12pm-9pm.ed is picking me from work again.and saturday i work too, 9am-4:15pm, and yeah ed is picking me up.ed said that he wants to pick me up from work as much as he can bc he misses me when he is work and when i am work too.so yeah.this saturday i am going to take ed out after i get off from work.have not clue yet what we are going to do but i just wanna take him out and spend some alone time with him since all we do really now is hang out with his friends and all.i think i am going to take ed out to dinner and to the movies most likely.maybe just dinner and then go to blockbuster since their is like couple of movies that i want to watch.so maybe.
aaww it was soo cute saturday nite when ed came and pick me up.he promise that thursday he will pick me up from work on saturday nite since friday nite was guys nite and i had to work.well he came and pick me up saturday nite and i was waiting outside of work for him and he came and i started walking up to his truck and when i did he got out and open the car door for me.then when i got in his truck he leaned in the truck and kissed me and said i missed you soo damn much.i was like aaaawww and he was like what and i told him that he hasnt been that damn nice for ever.he said well i was nice like that when we started going out and i said yeah like 2 years ago.he was like well i thought it would be nice of me.but it was soo cute and everything.smiles smiles..
well i am going to go..i have some things i have to do before i go to work..
ill try to update later..
*i love edward forever and always*
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[25 Sep 2005|02:11pm] |
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well let see here.i got a job.i had orientation wednesday nite i got paid for that. i worked thursday and friday.friday was really really busy.thursday i worked 4 till close but did not get out till 1130 thursday nite. friday i worked 4-830.i had off yesterday,today and tomorrow. this week i work alot. i work tues i work 10-4 wed 430-close friday 5-close saturday 12-8 sunday 4-close.so i will be busy alot this week.hey least i will be making some money now though.i cant wait to get paid.i get paid every two weeks.not bad i guess.but i will be saving all my money up to get a car and to move out too.
thursday nite when i got out of work ed was there to pick me up i was soo tired that i just went rite alseep on eds lap.i was soo sore and tired.friday nite when i got off phil picked me up from work and i had gotten something to eat from my work since i get free food when i work and i gave the food to phil omg it was soo funny.phil was like omg this is soo damn good.went to the pit that nite and dranked a lil bit not to much just enough to get me buzzing.spent the nite at eds house since we havent really hanged out since tuesday.didnt go to bed till 3 in the morning.then woked up saturday and me and ed was soo lazy we didnt do anythign during the day but sleep and watched tv.lol.then saturday nite went to spoofs house and then to spoofs gfs work and then to the pit again.lefted there and ed dropped me off bc he was really tired.so today im just chillen about to go and take a shower and all.hanging out with ed later tonite i think after he gets done doing homework for college.
well i am going to go and take a shower and everything.
*katie loves eddie april 21 2003*
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[15 Sep 2005|11:14pm] |
i got the job!!!had a interview on wednesday and i got hired on wednesday.
so be making money now and i will have some money.which is good.smiles.
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tomorrow is going to be busy day.my grandpa is having surgery tomorrow morning but i am staying home though because i have a interview tomorrow.yah yah!!go me.not going to say where till i know for sure that i got the job.
still bummed out that i wont be able to go with ed to cean city for bike week.it is going to suck this weekend.i wont see him all day friday or all day saturday.i wont see him till sunday.it is going to suck major monkey balls.everyone is going to be down there but me.but i told ed today that i have a feeling that the trip is going to fall through.he asked me why i thought of that and i said well first of all phil is not going because he is in tenn and he decided he wants to go to nashville so he is going there,so it is going to be u lenny lennys gf lindz phils gf alicia and you and two other guys that right now they dont know if they are going to go, second off i think it is not going to happen bc the hurricane or whatever it is supposed to hit ocean city with really bad rain and everything.ed siad yeah i know about the hurricance hitting ocean city with bad rains.ed said that he is thinking about not going at all just staying here.see i am being a big girl and i told ed that well if you want to go,go down i am not going to stop you bc i know you really wanna go so dont changed you mind about going and stay here bc i am going to be stuck up here.ed told me that he bummed out that i wont be able to go and that he feels bad about going and leaving me here since everyone else is going.so i dont know for sure that ed is going or not..i really want him to go though.i know he really wants to.i dont want him to stay here because of me.
so i just want this week to go by slow.ed told me that when he comes back home from the ocean on sunday morning that we can spend the day together and everything.
well going to watch some tv b4 i go to bed..
*i love edward*
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| new style and a long update sorta.. |
[12 Sep 2005|01:29am] |
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*remember september 11 2001.the day that no one will ever forget*
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) undiscovered27 thank u for the new header..thanx..
well anyways..
havent updated for a loong time.well i dyed my hair back to normal.its dark brown.so i am happy.hehe..just been hanging out with ed when i can.he start college beginning of this month so he has classes on tuesdays and thursdays so it is sorta hectic trying to see him and all, with him working and going to college.this weekend we spent the whole weekend together since next friday and saturday i wont see him at all.the reason why i wont get to see him at all is because next weekend in ocean city is bike week and him,lenny phil are all going.at first it was surposed to be only the guys going down and lenny and phil both told ed that i was not allowed to go it was only guys.but guess what..both of them are brining their gfs along.yeah no guys weekend.ed found out last week that phil and lenny are bringing their gfs down and ed was like well what happen to no gfs are coming down and telling me that kate was not allowed to go and lenny goes well i decided to bring my gf down and phil decided to bring his gf down and i was like oh and kate cant come and they were like she can come but i dont know.i told ed that i wouldnt mind going but if he really wants to go down there for 2 days just him and all of them that i am kool with it.that i would only go if he really wants me to and he does wants me to go since the other guys have their gfs coming with them so i duno know.i guess ill find out by thursday if i am going.but i got this feeling that ed is not going to go.he said to me earlier tonite when we are chillen in his room that he is thinking about not going at all because of money and the fact he said that he will miss me to damn much.so i dont know.~in other things~ive been busy around the house.just been cleaning the house and everything up since my grandpa is having surgery this wednesday so ive been cleaning the house up and all.not going to college to the spring i think??i am still thinking about taking a english class in october but not so sure yet.still looking for a job still.but i have 4 places lined up so maybe still will happen and ill get a job.ed told me tonite when i was talking about the 4 places with the jobs i can get, he told me well get a job and sve money up so i can move out of my house and we can live together.when he said that i was huh what say that again..he said when you get a job save money up so you and me can move out and move in together.i said you wanna move in together and he said yeah who else i wanna move in with.i said your friends and he said nah i wanna move in with you.so i promise ed that when i get a job i will save my money up for a car and to move out so me and him can move in together.so yeah..going to do that.dont know where we are going to move in at but we will figure it out when that time comes..
well dont know what else to write about..
*i love edward barron schwaab forever and always*<~~~~that boy is the love of my life!!!
*kaitlin*
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i finally got my haircut.its a lil past my shoulders a bit and i have side bangs too..so far everyone likes my hair..yah yah!!now i only need to dye my hair back to brown..bc ya know brunettes are more better..lol..but yeah i like my new haircut...
tomorrow (well it is already tomorrow but ya know what i mean)i am going to spend the whole day with edward..we are going to a biek show..
went to the mall tonite and brought a shit from rue 21 and it saids "i think your tractor is sexy"..its green with yellow writing...i had to get it..it is soo cute..lol..
well im out..going to bed..major headache..
*i love edward*
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[25 Aug 2005|12:54am] |
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i found out tonite who my true friends are..
so i guess the only real friend i have right now is edward..
o well..its life..
*i love edward*
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[24 Aug 2005|01:36pm] |
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well let see here..o yeah last thursday me and ed got into a big hude bad fight.sorta broke up and then got back together in the same day like in two hours.i was over his house when the fight happen, so i just layed on his bed and he was laying there too and he just turned around towards me and i said to me that he wanted to be with me that he is sorry and that he loves me soo much.he was crying when he said that to me.everything now is good.actually better.so been hanging out with him and couple of my friends.also ed got a motorcycle.its a 2003 honda cbr 600rr.yeah its a speedbike one.its pretty cool too.ive been on it too couple of times..hehe..monday i went to the gyn.she gave me a new birth control to try out.which is cool.i like going to the gyn, you get free stuff..lol..monday went out to dinner with ed lenny lindz alicia and justin.its was funny eating dinner out with them.omg.it was soo funny.the things we do when we are all around each other.we are trouble.we back to eds house after we drove around a bit.chilled there..yesterday i got an application from alicia's work.which is cool bc then i can work with here..that means trouble..lol..good kind of trouble.lol.then chilled at eds house all nite.his stomach hurt from riding the bike soo much and all.so we just relaxed and watched some tv.
today the power decided it was going to go out for like 2 hours.yeah def woked me up bc im used to having my radio on and my fan on and it wasnt so i woke up to see why and i found out that the power was out.so i went back to sleep till 1 this afternoon.yeah def slept late.eating lunch now..bout to clean my room up?maybe i duno know..i havent decided yet.i think tonite i am hanging out with edward.i duno know yet..
well im out..
*i love edward*
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[20 Aug 2005|01:08am] |
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i know i shouldnt have done that.but i dont know why i do this in the first place.i guess at one point in my life i thought that the only way to get pain to go away was to do that.i promise my self almost a year ago that i wouldnt do this again.that i would over come the pain by writing or doing something that was good.but why the other night while i was sitting in my room alone crying i pick up the habit again??i took the scissors and just went into my lil zone and just starting to rub teh scissors back and forth on my left arm and then on my right knee.the funny thing is that it didnt even hurt.i felt no pain.the pain was gone.but then afterwards, i saw you face and i started crying.i broke a promise to my self and to you.you say everytime we talk about "this" that it is stupid.yes it is stupid but i dont know why i do it or even did it.when you say it is stupid and that it is dumb i get mad at my self because i dont want you to hate me.ive been doing this habit for awhile.even b4 i started going out with you.i remember once b4 we moved i did it. i did it with a knife.it only left a scratch.i told my mom that i got the scratch from playing in the playground. i didnt do it again for another two years.i remember why i did it again.i did it again because me and my mom was talking and she was telling me about my dad.she was telling me why my dad left and what happen.after she told me i started crying i told her that i wanted to be lefted alone in my room.so while i was in my room i took a pair of scissors and cut my self.this time when i cut my self i didnt cut my wrist.i cut my leg so i could tell my mom that i cut my self shaving.i stop doing it after that.i wanted to make it stop.it did stop for a good while.then it came back again.this time i just dont know why.i just started it again.i started cutting my wrist this time.so when i went to places i tried to hide it.i started wearing my hoodies more and more.lucky it was winter.then i meet ed.everything started going good for once.he loves me for who i am.even my faults.when i started going out with ed i wanted to stop.i didnt want him to know that i did "this."so i stopped.then one day after we started going out, i told him.i was scared when i told him because he was the first person for me to ever tell this to.i never told anyone.but i think some ppl guessed it.when i told him he asked me why i did "this?"i didnt have the answer really.it wasnt no 1 answer.it was many answers.i told him everything and he told me that it was stupid and he didnt want me to do "this" because there was no reason to do "this."
but "this" comes back on and off.i havent done it for awhile but then wednesday i found my self doing it again.i was mad at my self because i let my self back to "this habit."i decided that i am not going to let this habit win again.i am going to overcome this.i am going to win at this competition.i am going to say good-bye to this habit.no more of "this" again.
good-bye..
*katie loves ed*
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sitting alone at my house.nothing to do.no one to hang out with.sucks.ed is hanging with his brothers today.i just called him to say hi and i asked him if we can hang out sometime today and he said that tonite we can hang out.so i have to wait till tonite to hang out with him.i wish i can hang out with him right now.i am soo bored.i already took a shower and everything.i have nothing to do.i watched esposides of real world austin ondemand.which was only two.i am hoping someone comes home like now.i wanna go out and drive or something.i am soo bored.it is not even funnie.but least i get to hang out with edward later..
well im out..just rambling on and on here..so im out..
*kaitlin marie hesterberg loves edward barron schwaab april 21 2003*
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today was a fun day.hanged out with lindz during the day.it wasfun.we got lost at essex community..lol.but we found our way.me and her have to go back up there next week.yerp yerp.then on the way back home her car decided it was going to overheat.so lucky we were right by my house.so we parked up the street.me and her walked to my house and chilled here for a bit.then she walked back up to her car to see if the car would work and it did,so she went back home.i chilled my house for a bit.mom came and picked me up.i got to drive, we had some things we had to do.yeah i am pretty good driver..smiles.afterwards i went to eds house.so just chilled at eds house tonite.me and ed washed his motorcycle that he has now.we watched a movie too.we watched despedeo(sp?)with antino bandes in it..omg he is soo hott.the one part ed was like yeah they have sex and you see alot of things.he was right..it was like a mini porn movie.lol..the movie was good.
anyways..
i cant wait to go back to the gyn.i need to be on bitch control.i got my period yesterday.omg it hurts soooo bad.but i have to wait till the 22 of this month.that is when i go back to her.i hope she can give me a birth control that wont make me sick or anything.the one on she put me on made me sick and i couldnt walk that good and i was just out of it.totally.
well im out..going to watch some tv and then go to bed..
*i love edward april 21 2003*
o yeah..i got a job!!!
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aaww ed took me out to dinner tonite..hehe..me and him havent been out to dinner for lil awhile now.smiles smiles smiles..
tomorrow i have to call up to the place that i went for a interview.the lady was surposed to call me back today but she never did.i even called up there and no one answered.so tomorrow i am going to call up there to see what is up.i hope get the job though..just hoping though..
thinking about getting my nails done tomorrow since i have a gift certficate that i got from ms heath.i want to get my hair cut tomorrow too but i dont have money..ill ask my momma for some money so i can get my hair cut.im not getting it cut short..i just want some layers put in..
well dont know what else to write about..
*i love edward barron schwaab*
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went to my interview yesterday.so basically i have the job.the lady that interview me is going to call me tomorrow to tell my the position that i have.so now i have to go shopping for some things i need for the job.so i have to ask ed if he can let me borrow some money and ill pay him back.just now i have to go hold of him to ask him if i can borrow some money..i prolly can though.smiles.
spent the day basically with edward.we had soo much fun yesterday.i think me and ed are hanging out tonite too when he gets off from work.we prolly go bowling since it is 1 dollar nite.hehe..
well im out..
*i love ed*
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you what else sucks too..
one of my mom's closest friends died..yeah..so sad about that.i am sad bc of how she died.she was in soo much pain..no one should go through cancer.
that is what is wrong with me..if anyone cares..since everyone does now..
whatever im just pissed off at alot of things..dont mean to sound mean..so sorry..
*i love ed*
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my ferrat died today..my mom just found it dead..my baby pooh is gone.
im sad.
r.i.p
pooh.
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first of all i want to say thanx to xblueandyell0wx for the fob lyric icon that she made.thank you!!!
welp anyways..just sitting here in my room being bored and tired.woked up at 830 this morning so i can go driving.yerp i got my learners so my grandpa took me out driving the van.i did really good.i drove him to the avenue and all.then drove back home.took a shower and just relax for a bit.then yeah i cooked.i baked a cake and i cooked dinner tonite.so the deal is that i never cooked dinner.i cant really cook.if it is not microwaveable then i cant make it.but tonite i made dinner.i burn my arm a lil bit from the oven.but i am ok.just tired now from all the cooking and all.
ed is surposed to come over later when he gets back from his dad boat.been hanging out with him alot lately..smiles..welp friday nite i didnt.he was really tired and i was over jackie's and jenn's house for their older sister steph's 21st bday party.drank a lil but there.spent the nite there since i couldnt see ed.then woke up saturday morning and walked to eds house.just the spent the whole day yesterday hanging out with him.went to dinner with his family last nite.had some fun yesterday.hehe..lol..
well im out..just thought i update here..lol..
*i love edward*
o yeah i forgot..
i have a interview tomorrow...wish me luck.crosses fingers..
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i am who I am because of you you're every reason,
every hope and every dream I've ever had and no
matter what happens to us in the future, everyday
that we are together is the greatest day of my life
-The Notebook
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thank u to smileudontexist for the icon.thank u soo much.
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| where is you boy tonite..i hope he is a gentlemen.. |
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i hope i get the job that i am going for a interview next monday.i really do hope so.i was so excited yesterday when i found that i have a interview for one of jobs i applied for.when i told ed i was soo happy.it just that i have been looking for a job for awhile and now maybe i will have one.ed told me to save all my money when i get paid and not spend it, so i can get a car.he told me to saveup and not worry about the car that he will take care of it.that he will get me a nice decent car for me.maybe a civic or a cavalier??maybe i duno know.if i get this job i working whenever they need me.i will take any hours they want to give me.i need this job.i really do.i know if i do get this job i have to get some clothes and a pair of shoes for work.so i would have to borrow money for my mom or ed.either one..lol.
anyways..
just been chillen all day.trying to figure what i am doing tonite.not so sure if the crew is going bowling tonite.last time i knew ed was going to get his truck tonite.i cant wait to ride in the new truck..hehe..i mean it is going to be the same as the one he has now but newer..lol..o yeah also if i do get this job i am going to get a cell phone and i am going to put it in my name.i already know what kind of cell phone i want.yeah yeah..
well going to take a shower and figure what i am going to wear.hhmmm..lol..
*i love edward schwaab*
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